the thing about life - 2

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
Wear sunscreen
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…
I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….
You’re not as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you.
Sing.
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…
what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.
Enjoy your body, use it every way you can… don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.
Dance… even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen…

the thing about life

I've been in this world for 21 years and counting...
mucho e aprendido en esos anios k an pasado, (y aun asi hay tanto k ignoro) ninguno de ellos fue un total desperdicio aunke muchos pudieron ser mejores.
in those years i've seen the world change, from the way people dress to the way they buy things, i saw the raise of cd and digital media, the fall of cassettes, i saw people download mp3's trough napster, and the music industry suing they're clients, i've seen new love flourish and a marriage wither away...
i once saw a mother cry for the loss of her daughter; there, i saw people lusting morbidly over her dead body. I saw her father's face covered in tears for his lost butterfly, wile family and friends grieved her depart...
and still to this day thats the saddest of all the things i've seen

Don't Bother None

quick 5 min. post... a Cowboy Bebop song


Yoko Kanno - Don't Bother None


Readin' my paper in Roy's cafe
The ol' guy next to me is loud as day
Rambled and rambled while eatin' his pie
He dropped his wallet, now its mine uh huh

Sorry old man but that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it

Picked up the wallet and slipped out side
Walked around and walked around and walked around town
I found my nerve and a good place to hide
Only to find no cash inside uh-huh

Oh well I guess that's just the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it

I got thirsty so I went to a bar
Met a lil darlin' with the face of a star
In the mornin' woke up to find
She stole my car along with my heart uh-huh

Oh well I guess that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it

Wish she'd give me back my heart uh-huh

Oh, well I guess that's jus' the way that it is
Don't bother none
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it

YO

sometimes i think we like to drown in our own misery...
now tell me, if there is hope... why say no?
es increible la inmensa complejidad de la mente humana... pero mas sorprendente aun es su estupides... we take all for granted... food, money, friends, healt, life... hasta k se nos va d la mano

when will we learn to cherish what we have? probably never

i myself am one of those fools who likes to drown in his very own glass of water/misery/whatever, but does knowing it make me any wiser? guess not cuz im still here, drowning.

actually i think that makes me a little worst than the others... why? cuz i know what my problem is and i still do nothing about it... once i thought i saw hope for a change... now i dont know if i lost it...


anyways... kiero escribir como antes... like back in the days =P toda mi crap existencialista... tb le voy a cambiar el nombre al blog... vamos a ver como m va con eso, ya tengo una idea d lo k kiero pero nap... ahora un poco d lo k siento.



que soy? quien soy? en que me e convertido?
con cada fibra d mi ser siento k no encajo,
no en este mundo d generalizaciones y estandares,
de numeros y etiketas...
pero eso no responde a mi pregunta,
a mi sed de conocimiento de akello mas ignoro;
mi propia naturalesa,
mi camino a seguir o el k ya e tomado,
hacia donde me llevara?
que yugos y tratos tendre k soportar?
que zapato pisara mi espalda?
que boca dictara las acciones k debo seguir?
o acaso sere libre?
o almenos hasta donde llega la libertad hoy en dia
que no es mucho mas lejos de la puerta de nuestras casas.
estoy cansado de las etiketas y los numeros,
de las generalizaciones y los estandares
quiero paz para la mente y el alma
libertad para la creatividad y el habla
pero mas que nada kiero...
ser...
yo.

of choices and regrets...

right now its 6:09 in the morning and im in bed... with the laptop... thinking about life...

you know, every day we have to make choices that in some way or another are going to affect our whole life... today i made one of those choices (one that I've been dragging 4 a few days now)... i just hope its the right one.

i cant help but feel uneasy, im not sure about what im doing, at least to me its the logical thing to do (which actually makes it non-logical at all) and in order to stay true to myself its what i have to do... and still...

i also remembered the day of the car crash, that's officially the worst mistake of my life, thats the kind of mistake i dont wanna end up doing again, thank god no one died that day... i dont know what i would have done... even if the world might be a better place without a few people in it...

its incredible... my life is so easy, even i know that, and yet im bound to the idea that my life is strange, difficult, tasteless, and any other bad adjectives you might wanna add there...

im laying in my bed, with the laptop, writing in my "blog/journal thingy" and thinking about life... cant get much more pathetic than that...

one last thing... i know you cant read this... i know you wouldn't read it even if you could... i know i cant call you or see u, or talk to u in any way anymore, but i miss you, heard this song the other day and to me it talks about not being afraid and fighting for what you believe in even if it kills you in the process, it also reminded me of you... miss u muecosa... miss u ramirez ramirez... miss u...

"Cassie"

The question asked in order
To save her life or take it
The answer no to avoid death
The answer yes would make it
Make it

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger

All heads are bowed in silence
To remember her last sentence
She answered him knowing what would happen
Her last words still hanging in the air
In the air

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Rachel pulled the trigger

How many will die
I will die
I, I will say yes

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger

(Do you believe)
Do you believe in God (Do you believe)
Do you believe in God (Do you believe)
Do you believe in God
And I will pull the trigger

8 years late

how can u come back like this?
thinking every thing's just fine
its been 8 year girl...
did u really thought I'd wait all that time?
don't look at me with those eyes
you thought you had me for granted
now I'm a different person
I've grown up since our last encounter
i don't care about what you want
i don't care about who you are
cant you see girl?
I've been over you since 2001
...

Three Libras...

A Perfect Circle - Three Libras

threw you the obvious
and you flew with it on your back
a name
in your recollection
down among a million same

difficult not to feel a little bit
disappointed and passed over
when I look right through
I see you naked but oblivious

and you don't see me

but I threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the
eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy

here I am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded
but I see, see through it all
see through
see you

'cause I threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the
eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy

oh well
oh well
apparently nothing
apparently nothing at all

you don't
you don't
you don't see me

you don't
you don't
you don't see me

you don't
you don't
you don't see me

you don't
you don't
you don't see me

you don't
see me

you don't
you don't
you don't see me at all


luego pondre algo para acompaniarlo...

a game we all like to play

-Build your story from scratch, the only thing you cant do is chose your parents.
-Make your own decisions and choose your way in life.
-Special E-motion system lets you feel joy, pain, sorrow, excitement, etc.
-Almost infinite amount of ways to earn money, you can chose to be a farmer or the next big mafia-boss.
-Fully customizable and updates with new content every day.
-Beautifully rendered environments and real-time weather effects.
-Ambient true-life 3d surround sound effects, build your own soundtrack.





-Awesome gameplay, including:
-----super enhanced first person mode
-----full interactive environment
-----complex advancement system lets you learn new moves and tricks
-----build your body the way you want it by going to gym or doing diets
-----go to school and interacting with real people
-----studying will let you improve your grades
-----complex dating sim, no girl or boy is the same
-----marriage system can work in your favor or against you
-----law system determines if your actions are good or bad
-----new features implemented every day
-----no difficulty setting, u set your own depending on your actions
-----one time experience, so make it worth wile

"ITS SO HARD BEING ME!" a game we all like to play!
the greatest mind in the universe created life... or was it just coincidence? doesn't matter, the point is you are alive and have to deal with it. Grow up in a randomly created environment, survive your first year and your up for a good start. As (put name your parents gave you here) you'll have to fight germs in your body and build up your immunology system and grow up.
but thats not all the fun... actually thats only the start of it, going to school, meeting "friends" (who might end up back-stabbing you later), fighting bullies (or being the bully), studying to get good grades to get to a good university and meet that "special someone" are only some of the options.

in the end its all your choice, become a serial killer or the next Martha Stewart, commit suicide or bomb school and blow everyone with you... just remember, this is a one time experience so get the most of it!

I am very bothered

I am very bothered when I think
of the bad things I have done in my life.
Not least that time in the chemistry lab
when I held a pair of scissors by the blades
and played the handles
in the naked lilac flame of the Bunsen burner;
then called your name, and handed them over.

O the unrivalled stench of branded skin
as you slipped your thumb and middle finger in,
then couldn't shake off the two burning rings. Marked,
the doctor said, for eternity.

Don't believe me, please, if I say
that was just my butterfingered way, at thirteen,
of asking you if you would marry me.

-- Simon Armitage



found this in my hard drive...
i really like it... reminds me of the way we, at a young age, try to get peoples attention by doing the weirdest things... some of them not so good.

i really want to live that again, life was so simple and there was nothing to worry about... no hearts broken, no one died... the worst case scenario was a cold...

and best of all... we didnt care what people thought of us... we were just happy and did whatever we wanted to

NOW!!!

first of all dont mind the title... its has nothing to do with what i posted here...

this will be the official first post... kinda lame its just something i wrote who knows when (and im only using it as an excuse 4 what i really want to post) and some lyrics of an old as hell song...

here goes...

its not about loosing hope or not, its about trying as hard as u can! e vivido y experimentado todo lo k dices, e escrito sobre eso justo como lo haces ahora, e amado, e querido y e tratado a los demas como me gustaria ser correspondido, trust me, it never comes back like it should... la vida es muy extrania no crees? queremos a quienes no nos quieren, amamos a quien sabemos que nunca nos amara y tratamos mejor a los que ni les interesa... como t dije e vivido cada uno de esos momentos, y probablemente mas d una vez cada uno... y sabes que? estoy seguro que volvere a vivirlos. life ist perfect, but its great just as it is, gracias a esos momentos en los que nos sentimos mal, en los que paerce k el mundo se nos viene ensima, esos son los momentos en los que se pone a prueba quienes somos en verdad y si merecemos algun dia ser felices. porque caemos podemos levantarnos y aprender de nuestros errores. lose hope if u want to... but never give up on live or love. just like in the movies it comes when u least expect it...



and now... the song:

Third Eye Blind - Jumper

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could
Cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And
If you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand

The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight, you're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong

Well, everyone I know has got a reason
To say
"Put the past away"

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could
Cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And
If you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand

Well, he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows what they're
Doing here
And your friends have left you, you've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this, and I
I want you to know

Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could
Cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And
If you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
I would understand

(I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Can you put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend (I would understand)
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend (I would understand)
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend (I would understand)

And I would understand (I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend)
I would understand (I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend)
I would understand

maybe "someone" will read this... and find some meaning in it...

me enseniaste..

wrote this a loooooong time ago... never thought id post it... pero asi es la vida... uno nunca sabe....




"what u taught me..."


tu quien nunca leeras esto... esto, es para ti...


siempre pense en velar por tu felicidad... de ti aprendi que si yo no velo por mi felicidad, nadie lo ara, y si lo hacen... mejor... ahora somos dos que velamos por mi...

siempre pense que el amor era incondicional... de ti aprendi a imponer las condiciones

siempre pense en dar antes que recivir... de ti aprendi que es mejor, mucho mejor recivir

siempre pense que la honestidad era lo mas importante... de ti aprendi que la ipocresia es un arte

siempre pense que las pequenias cosas eran las mas importantes... de ti aprendi que si no es a lo grande, para que molestarse?

siempre pense en el amor como un sentimiento... de ti aprendi que eso no es mas que un obstaculo para mis suenios

siempre pense en no lastimarte... de ti aprendi que si te sientes mal, pues te lo ganaste

siempre pense que estar con quien amas era mas que suficiente... de ti aprendi que sin 15 o 20 personas no hay hambiente

siempre pense que en verdad me amabas... de ti aprendi... olvidalo, de amor nunca me enseniaste nada...


por suerte tengo mala memoria... se que pronto olvidare todo lo aprendido...


ahora... algo si me enseniaste que nunca olvidare... nunca, nunca, NUNCA le estregues tu vida, tu corazon ni tu alma a nadie... aunque creo que e aprendido esto demasiado tarde...

fisrt blog

first blog, first day...
and what a day... estoy cansado... llegue a casa a las 6:30 am de una filmacion...
guess ill post something tonight