I am very bothered

I am very bothered when I think
of the bad things I have done in my life.
Not least that time in the chemistry lab
when I held a pair of scissors by the blades
and played the handles
in the naked lilac flame of the Bunsen burner;
then called your name, and handed them over.

O the unrivalled stench of branded skin
as you slipped your thumb and middle finger in,
then couldn't shake off the two burning rings. Marked,
the doctor said, for eternity.

Don't believe me, please, if I say
that was just my butterfingered way, at thirteen,
of asking you if you would marry me.

-- Simon Armitage



found this in my hard drive...
i really like it... reminds me of the way we, at a young age, try to get peoples attention by doing the weirdest things... some of them not so good.

i really want to live that again, life was so simple and there was nothing to worry about... no hearts broken, no one died... the worst case scenario was a cold...

and best of all... we didnt care what people thought of us... we were just happy and did whatever we wanted to